September's Full Moon Reading

It's been a while since my last reading post! It's been a bit of a hectic time. I did end up moving, but between the stresses and long list of to-dos I didn't end up making time for a ritual back in July, but I'm happy to say that I did get to them for July & August—I just didn't sit down to write out posts for it all...

I still haven't modified my ritual at all, though I think—if I spare the time in the next month—that may not be true in October. It's been a tumultuous month for me; my workplace became more hostile to me, leading to me getting laid off due to "low sales", and while I've been told to expect an offer letter soon for a new job I have yet to receive that offer, all the while I am working towards becoming an Electrical Apprentice! While I've been out of work I have been working diligently on making my spaces at home feel more comfortable and welcoming to me. A big part of that process has been getting some furniture up into my bedroom and soon I'll be decorating the walls & moving my desks up there as well! It'll be a little cubby of my own personal space available for all the muses I want to do away from the company of my roommate. There is much still to do to get myself solidly on my feet, but I feel confident I'll get there without things getting dire; it's a scary position to be in, but I'm eternally greatful to be going through it now rather than 3 or 4 years ago, I would not be able to handle it all as well as I am now.

Tonight's tarot reading felt pretty on point with all that's going on. I went for the same 4-card spread as usual and the pulls are:

The Querant being the Four of Coins does resonate with my current situation, to an extent at least. It indicates that I am searching for stability and control, which I certainly am very much so right now, and that this is driven by some amount of fear—again very true, but it presumes that I am in a good place. I wouldn't really call "recently laid off and have no other income" a good place, fiscally... That said though I have some potential opportunities coming up that mean I very well should be in a good place pretty soon! So I'll give it a pass, just this once /j

The Past's pull is the Four of Chalices, it tells me what I already know to be true but welcome hearing again: that my affairs are in order but I am dissatisfied with the status quo I've found myself in, & that I have been unwilling to appreciate the stability I've built for myself. If there's any word I could use to describe my situation working at my most recent job it would be "dissatisfied". From the general hostility and unsafe working conditions there was a lot for me to find repulsive and uncomfortable, and all I could think about was finding any way to get out of there and move on. I didn't leave exactly on my own terms but were I not laid off it would've been only a matter of time before I was quitting, so not really much loss there.

And speaking of moving past old situations into new ones, I drew The Fool for The Present. I've been planning and working towards a new job situation for most of the year so far, and it's only now coming together. While the next job likely won't be the one to take me in an entirely new direction, that new opportunity is surely not far behind. Seeing The Fool was quite reassuring in a lot of ways as I know I was given the grace of good luck to be in the position I am now, and since being laid off threw the habits of my daily life to the wind so I have almost exclusively been acting on whims. I'm excited for the (potential) opportunity to take a larger change in careers and work instead as an Electrician rather than simply a Electronics Manufacturing Technician; I really do think it's the kind of professian that, while difficult to get started in, I will thrive once I've reached the Journeyman level.

For all it's faults, the job I've left did give me a lot of skills and experience working as a Electronics Manufacturing Technician which I was made very well aware of when I attended a Career Fair—which happened to be the day before I was laid off, I got to see a handful of people go ahead of me for the initial interviews, heard some of what was discussed, and I could rest assured that I had more & better experience than them. When I took the first interview I felt more confident than I ever have going into a job interview, and it was a short one before I was taken to the second interview in front of a panel of 5 interviewers well-knowledged in the positions they were seeking to fill. Even in front the intimidating presence of all those individuals, I was able to still push past the nerves, talk about my experience and skills, and discuss with them how it all relates to what they were looking for. Going through that whole experience, and being informed last week that I should expect an offer letter soon, I have been shown what The Future's pull, the Knight of Coins, is telling me: I am a hard worker, a reliable worker, and I'm damn good at what I do.

Even if things are not as hopeful as you may have hoped in your own life, I hope the path forward to a better, more solid future is clear to you, and that you have the confidence and self-conviction to follow it. 💜 See you next month!

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